I've had silk edged blankets since I was a baby. But I didn't get in the habbit of rubbing them between my fingers until my Grandma died around when I was 4-5. I was very close to her.
I had a specific blanket with animals A-Z printed on it which was edged in silk that my Grandma had made for me. When she passed away that blanket was the only way I could feel close to her. It reminded me of her. And it even smelled like her house. And that's when I started rubbing it between my fingers.
As I got older I kept doing it even though that blanket had to be retired later around age 12 or so, it was falling apart. By then the blanket wasn't for remembering my Grandma, I was over that. However I still wanted to rub that silk between my fingers so I had my Mom make me another one. Then it became a fad. I would get new ones for Christmas every year, and of different prints, softness, etc etc. This wen't on till I was well over 20, still living at home while going to college.
However, when I moved out and got busy I stopped keeping the actual blankets around and I found myself constantly urging for that silky feeling to keep my fingers busy. So now I just go to the fabric store and buy a whole role of the two sided folded silk and I cut off a 5 foot piece and just rub the silk between my fingers without the blanket. Eventually I will rub the silk completely apart, all the fibers come undone and get deposited here and there. It's amusing when I vacuum and see balls of silk fuzz in the container.
I keep a piece of silk in my pocket almost all the time. For me it's just relaxing. It's like I have restless finger syndrome or something.
I'm a computer programmer, so it acts a stress reliever/finger exerciser routine imo.
However, to this day, when I have silk between my fingers, I remember my Grandma and events from when I was 4. So in a way, physcologically it keeps me connected to my past and inner child. That's something I don't want to ever forget. So maybe the way it feels between my fingers and the emotional state it puts me in is why it's so addicating.
It's my fall back for everything.
I'm also a smoker, however I do not drink and have never picked up any drug habbits. For me, the silk is all I need to get over any problem, I don't need to drink or do drugs, it is my drug.
IIN to love to rub fabrics between my fingers?
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I've had silk edged blankets since I was a baby. But I didn't get in the habbit of rubbing them between my fingers until my Grandma died around when I was 4-5. I was very close to her.
I had a specific blanket with animals A-Z printed on it which was edged in silk that my Grandma had made for me. When she passed away that blanket was the only way I could feel close to her. It reminded me of her. And it even smelled like her house. And that's when I started rubbing it between my fingers.
As I got older I kept doing it even though that blanket had to be retired later around age 12 or so, it was falling apart. By then the blanket wasn't for remembering my Grandma, I was over that. However I still wanted to rub that silk between my fingers so I had my Mom make me another one. Then it became a fad. I would get new ones for Christmas every year, and of different prints, softness, etc etc. This wen't on till I was well over 20, still living at home while going to college.
However, when I moved out and got busy I stopped keeping the actual blankets around and I found myself constantly urging for that silky feeling to keep my fingers busy. So now I just go to the fabric store and buy a whole role of the two sided folded silk and I cut off a 5 foot piece and just rub the silk between my fingers without the blanket. Eventually I will rub the silk completely apart, all the fibers come undone and get deposited here and there. It's amusing when I vacuum and see balls of silk fuzz in the container.
I keep a piece of silk in my pocket almost all the time. For me it's just relaxing. It's like I have restless finger syndrome or something.
I'm a computer programmer, so it acts a stress reliever/finger exerciser routine imo.
However, to this day, when I have silk between my fingers, I remember my Grandma and events from when I was 4. So in a way, physcologically it keeps me connected to my past and inner child. That's something I don't want to ever forget. So maybe the way it feels between my fingers and the emotional state it puts me in is why it's so addicating.
It's my fall back for everything.
I'm also a smoker, however I do not drink and have never picked up any drug habbits. For me, the silk is all I need to get over any problem, I don't need to drink or do drugs, it is my drug.