Is it normal to love throwing up?

First off, I do not have a eating disorder but I LOVE to throw up. I like the feeling when you vomit and I love the good feeling after I vomit. I make myself vomit after a big meal to have that thrill, my mom and brother thinks I do this because I'm trying to lose weight but is not. it doesnt matter if i'm actually sick or if I force myself I just love that feeling. is it normal?