Is it normal to love my mothers sister and hate my mother

Is it normal to love my aunty more than my mother. she is my mothers sister and is the only one who shows me any love whatsoever. the other night she stayed at our house and due to childhood abuse i get nightmares sometimes and she was sleeping in my bed and she held my hand knowing i was scared and kept telling me there is nothing for me to be afraid of :) this made me feel so good and i wasnt as frightened and the next morning she did not tell anyone about this which made me trust her more. i love my aunt so much and kinda wish she was my mother because she gives me hugs and my own mother has never shown me any affection at all. when im around her everything is ok and feels like nothing bad could happen :)
should i feel bad for not loving my mother even though she has told me many times she hates me :(