Is it normal to love companionship of gay guys?

my name is raw-b i love being around gays too! in prison i had my first gay experience when that cock thrusted in my ass i knew from them that i was in the velvet mafia, i love there balls slapping against my face, and having sex outside while creepy men watch but im in love with this girl, we shall call her.... flatass but she doesnt seem to care she just pretends to be a slut and im scared ive lost her its not how it used to be when we would sit on the phone now she'd rather sit on the phone to jumbo fucking bastard(U)