Is it normal to live another's life... succesfully but unwanted

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I like to call myself a real pro in imitating people, right now i am at the age of 20... When i was 16 i had a psychological issue called agoraphobia... Being scared of public thus carying an insecure gesture. For 2 years they tried to help me unsuccesfully... Then i met someone who told me i had to study the word "gesture" itself... Me being creative made a study of just imitating people so my agoraphobia wouldn't be noticed, strange thing is that when im talking to random people im automatically imitating them... Noticing they really like me for doing so :) i have friends who tend to be on the border of society and on the other side i have friends who are succesful in life, having everything they need... Now i am 20... I have a nice girlfriend... I have another girl who keeps trying to get me even if i already have someone... Nice "friends"... But it al feels strange, i cant tell who i really am! I can befriend who i want yet i am insecure and introvert from nature... You could say i have nothing to whine about but even so... Who is I? Cant seem to find him even though i try my best! Yet i am happy... In a way

Oh and on a side note... Im really comitted to my gf... But im like... You know, i want a gf who loves "me" would it be normal in this case to end my current relation... I tried to love her for 2 years now >_>

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  • Gardenia
    13 years ago | pl

    Wow. This is so weird, your life should be a movie. Foreal.

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  • Troll
    11 years ago | pl

    Are you a woman? Because I have never met a man with a big of a PUSSY as you.

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  • blackanesegirl
    13 years ago | pl

    i really dont get wat ur trying to say....

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  • moomus
    13 years ago | pl

    As for loving your girlfriend, well you obviously dont which makes me wonder if you should be with her. ask yourself how would you feel if she dumped you or cheated? would it make you sad? I guess it is normal to feel this way if you dont truly feel you are yourself. as for not knowing who you are then all I can say is things take time. Life teaches you about who you are. The more you go through and the older you get you will learn more about yourself. You are only 20 which is still pretty young. I am 34 and still learnig about myself and feel theres plenty more to know! its weird because getting to know yourself is different to getting to know someone else as you are looking at yourself from a whole different angle. I always feel that you learn a whole lot more about yourself and life when you leave school and lifes one big long learning experience so dont be to worried as you still have time. Maybe explain to your girlfriend how you feel and if shes that nice, and the one for you she will understand. just maybe she knows you better than you know yourself and only you can answer that!

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