I used to have this analogy where I thought of my life as like a book, and it didn't matter whether the book was happy or sad so long as it was "good" ("good" was quite a nebulous idea I couldn't define, though I didn't realise that at the time). Looking back, it was just my way of coping with the state I was in, justifying my depression to stop myself feeling helpless about it.
To cut the long story short: I came to the conclusion that it was fucked up to risk sacrificing my own happiness for some sort self-absorbed artistic value, so I eventually stopped thinking that way.
It wasn't normal or healthy, and I don't think your situation is either. I listen to happy music when I'm sad too, but only to make myself feel better not to create a bitter irony.
Is it normal to listen to happy music when I'm depressed?
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I used to have this analogy where I thought of my life as like a book, and it didn't matter whether the book was happy or sad so long as it was "good" ("good" was quite a nebulous idea I couldn't define, though I didn't realise that at the time). Looking back, it was just my way of coping with the state I was in, justifying my depression to stop myself feeling helpless about it.
To cut the long story short: I came to the conclusion that it was fucked up to risk sacrificing my own happiness for some sort self-absorbed artistic value, so I eventually stopped thinking that way.
It wasn't normal or healthy, and I don't think your situation is either. I listen to happy music when I'm sad too, but only to make myself feel better not to create a bitter irony.