Is it normal to "like" going through depression?

i am kind of the same i like the feeling of being rejected n not fitting in being the odd one out, i love the feeling of not belonging because im different in the head no one likes me my personality sucks , theres only 2 things in this stupid world ME N MY MOTORBIKE BUELL LIGHTING 900, wen ever you see me on the roads on my motorbike nod ur head because im a lone wolf who is willing to plan a heist