Is it normal to have these fleeting thoughts?

I'm not obsessed with these thoughts (I think) but they're always in the back of my mind.

1. I went to a new grocery store and bought a bunch of stuff including meat. I cooked dinner that night and a little while after I ate it (including the next day) I felt sick. No one else who ate it said they felt that way but I started thinking that all the meat we bought from there was contaminated and I refuse to eat any of it.

2. This made me think about a few weeks ago when I poured a glass of juice for myself and as I was walking to sit down I dropped my glass and it went all over the carpet/table. At that time I felt like something made me drop the glass on purpose, like they were controlling me. I had the same thought about the food I ate. I cooked it. So I thought what if something made me put something into the food to make me sick? that wouldn't make sense though because no one else got sick off of it.

3. A little bug was flying around me. I went to the kitchen and it was there again. At first I had a feeling it was following me, then I had a thought that it was watching me, or better yet that someone was controlling it to watch me.

I don't necessarily believe these things but I'm not going to eat that meat just in case. I just had a thought that that bug came from the meat and that company is watching me or trying to hurt me. I feel like throwing away all the meat we bought...but then I'd looked crazy right?

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  • BTStallion

    I was diagnosed with depression and a mild form of OCD five years ago. I do NOT exhibit any of the symptoms you've mentioned.

    You probably already know this, but Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is all about unwanted and repeated behaviors, such as the uncontrollable urge to flick a light switch on and off a set number or times before feeling comfortable enough to move on to something else.

    Your behaviors and distorted thinking, however, seem to fall very much under the category of schizophrenia. One common symptom involves a person believing someone or something may be out to get them or is watching them and controlling their every move. You mentioned that your mother has schizophrenia. Does she have these symptoms?

    It should be noted that the greatest risk for developing schizophrenia is having a relative with the disease. Since your mom has been diagnosed (I assume) with schizophrenia, there's a good chance you may have it, as well.

    In my personal opinion, from what I was able to gather from your post, these paranoid thoughts have yet to consume your life, but please don't take this problem lightly. Do not tell yourself that you think you may just be a little depressed and OCD. You're very lucky to have noticed this problem early and with the right help and a proper diagnosis, you may be able to stop this from getting worse and truly interfering with your life. If left untreated, schizophrenia can develop into a devastating and life-altering illness. I hope you don't let it get to that point.

    Good luck to you :)

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    • Yeah she'd always look out the window thinking someone was watching her. She thought my dad was the devil and ran around the neighborhood with him chasing her until 6AM. I remember her telling my brothers and me to come outside with her and stare at the sun. She also has OCD. Touching the stove knobs and counting then switching the light switch on and off and then running back to the stove to do it all over again. She washed her hands so much they were all cracked, sore and bleeding. If anyone moved anything even the slightest she'd know and spend an hour fixing it.

      Thanks for your post it was helpful. :)

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      • BTStallion

        That's so sad and actually one of the more upsetting cases I've heard :(.

        And you're welcome. I'm glad I could help :).

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  • Satchmo

    Op there are a couple of things this could be. Without more information its impossible to know could be drug induced psychosis if you do drugs any drug can cause it some are more likely than others but any drug recreational or even prescribed can cause it. However if you do not do drugs it is very likely either schizophrenia or the mania side of bipolar disorder. Either way I would say you are on the beginning stages of an up and coming bout of manic psychosis or the emergence of schizophrenia. There are some dead giveaways that mania is coming on watch for these and if you have friends who are extremely good friends(not friends of convienence but friends who genuinely care about your well being) tell them to look out for them as well. Also if you have a good family, you know if you do or dont, tell them. Number one sign keep track of how much you are sleeping. This not only is an effect of mania, but lack of sleep will push you deeper into psychosis. Number 2 changes in your carnal desires. This can manifest in different ways in different people it just depends on the person, but complete loss of apetite, voracious eating, hypersexuality, loss of sex drive anything that deviates from your normal interest in sex. These are the easiest things for you to notice yourself. There are more those close to you can notice. Delusions of grandeur is very very very common with mania. Basically this means that you begin to believe that you have an extremely grand purpose in life or are an incredibly important person. The most common delusions seem to be belief that you are being followed, persecuted, or monitered by some government organization. Religiously themed delusions are also very common regardless of your current religious beliefs examples, belief you are a messiah, God is directly talking to you, you are possessed by demons. Other symptoms are less prevalent but still very common. Reckless spending, poor planing. Increase in energy. Extreme over confidence-thinking you could be a professional athlete, thinking you are a super genius, thinking you are amazingly talented. I am a psychologist so trust me on this I deal with people in these states all of the time. It is important if you have the means that you see a mental health professional immediately. With family doctors and general practitioners it is hit or miss some are knowledgeable some arent in these matters. The reason it seems to be mania to me is the interconnectedness of these thoughts that you are having is very typical of mania. Delusional people do not have many different unrelated delusions. Typically the delusions are intricate, interwoven, and complicated. Watch for these signs if it is applicable let those around you know the signs. If it is possible see a psychiatrist or a psychologist. I havent read most of the comments on your poll but few people actually have the knowledge and understanding to make relavent compliments. If you are beginning a manic episode things will get worse more delusions, more complicated delusions, more persistent paranoia, and eventually the other symptoms will manifest. You can have a manic episode at any time in your life, but most people will experience their first from about 17 to the age of 25, I'm betting you are in this range if you are younger or older it is still very possible, don't rule this out just because you are not in this range. Let me know what happens I'll check to see if you have replied to this comment.

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    • Sorry for replying late I had surgery so I couldn't really go on the computer.

      I had depression w/ psychosis when I was 16 (I'm 20 now) and had to go to the hospital. I ended up stopping my pills after a couple months for a stupid reason. Another thing is my mom is schizophrenic.

      before I had to get surgery though I had to spend a day waiting to go to work and I got really paranoid. I bought oatmeal and a drink at a coffee shop and I kept thinking there were bugs in it. I was outside and there was one guy outside with me and it looked like he was watching me. So I couldn't move or do anything until he left. After that I walked around and I saw another guy standing in front of a store and I thought he was following me. So I went to the bookstore and I saw a book with a bug on the cover in the fantasy section. It felt like it was meant for me and I read the intro and it scared me because it said this message was for me and he was watching me and his name was Gideon which I could have sworn I thought of that name before when I thought someone was watching me.

      Anyways nothings happened since but I've had visitors over and I don't have problems when people are with me.

      I have a question I have problems talking to people even my family/close friends. I don't talk much or they don't understand what I'm trying to say. I don't really know how to respond to people in a normal conversation I just don't say anything and people think I'm weird. lol.

      I'll see a doctor when I get insurance..

      Thanks for the help! :)

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  • I don't understand why this has such a low vote count. I would think everyone would think about stuff like this. What do other people think about. Honestly I haven't used the oven at my house since I've here, nor let anyone else use it, because I feel like it lets out carbon monoxide. I've had the fire department, the landlord, and the gas company come check it out and all tell me its fine, but I still feel like its poisoning me.

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  • Conspiracies!!

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  • sac66064

    it sounds like you are having paranoid delusions. This does sound like a minor form of schizophrenia. I would get yourself assessed by a psychiatrist ASAP. The quicker they can start treatment the easier it is to get better. Don't delay.

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  • MyNameIsRare

    I believe you are being watched by the dead. Who knows. Do u believe in reincarnation? Maybe someone who died turned into that bug and is haunting u. U never know B|

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  • Avant-Garde

    Maybe schizophrenia? I've had symptoms like that for years. When I was a little kid my most common paranoia was based around food. I always thought it was contaminated. I've getting that allot lately. I once saw the same breed of butterfly and after awhile I thought it was the same one and it was following me:/ Look up the symptoms and see if you can relate.

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    • Do you have schizophrenia or just relate to some of the symptoms?

      I like to think I'm just depressed and a little OCD. My mom has OCD and schizophrenia.

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      • Avant-Garde

        I strongly believe that I've had schizophrenia since I was a small child. I have just about all of the symptoms. But the people I tell my findings to refuse to believe me. So, I'm labeled with misdiagnoses and not get the proper help need:/

        The fact that your mother has it could put you at a higher risk for developing it. Depression has some symptoms of it, but the paranoia,etc. That's usually part of schizophrenia. Read Dummies Guide to Schizophrenia or any Schizophrenia related book/site. They really helped to form some insight for me.

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  • I get paranoia such as this often.
    Its normal!
    I often wonder how many government officials are watching our every move, but just blend in as normal people.
    And the woods are right behind my bedroom, and i have a sliding glass door in my room that faces the woods, so im always wondering if someone is camping out in the woods with a sniper rifle waiting for the perfect opportunity to blow my brains out.

    i think your normal.

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  • gotogirl118

    It sounds like a physiological issue, if it becomes too bad you can consider a therapist or doctor, but for right now I'd recommend just trying to relax and think about other things. If it makes you feel better to not eat the meat than don't.

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