"I did it willingly and for that I'm guilty and ashamed. "
There's problem. You were of an age where you couldn't really decide that for yourself. He convinced you.
Just because he didn't physically force you doesn't mean you weren't psychologically forced to express your love sexually rather than as a sibling might normally do.
What you need to come to terms with is that you WERE raped. It's easier I know to blame yourself, rather than blaming someone you love... but he betrayed your love by convincing you that you wanted it.
What shames me the most, even more that the fact that I enjoyed it at times, is that I didn't bring it to anyones attention. If I had, my sister may have not had to endure it for 7 years......
7-9 years old is old enough to know its wrong and say no. I enjoyed the pleasure I got from it. That was my choice.
I wouldn't consider it blaming myself. That would be taking the victim stance, and I Refuse to be a victim. I think of it more as taking ownership for the part I had in it. If I see myself as helpless in the past, I'll probably see myself as helpless in the future.
I only partly blame him as well. My uncle molested him, so he's to blame also. Geez what a bunch of trailer trash huh :)
is it normal to have sex with your siblings?
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"I did it willingly and for that I'm guilty and ashamed. "
There's problem. You were of an age where you couldn't really decide that for yourself. He convinced you.
Just because he didn't physically force you doesn't mean you weren't psychologically forced to express your love sexually rather than as a sibling might normally do.
What you need to come to terms with is that you WERE raped. It's easier I know to blame yourself, rather than blaming someone you love... but he betrayed your love by convincing you that you wanted it.
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What shames me the most, even more that the fact that I enjoyed it at times, is that I didn't bring it to anyones attention. If I had, my sister may have not had to endure it for 7 years......
7-9 years old is old enough to know its wrong and say no. I enjoyed the pleasure I got from it. That was my choice.
I wouldn't consider it blaming myself. That would be taking the victim stance, and I Refuse to be a victim. I think of it more as taking ownership for the part I had in it. If I see myself as helpless in the past, I'll probably see myself as helpless in the future.
I only partly blame him as well. My uncle molested him, so he's to blame also. Geez what a bunch of trailer trash huh :)
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that's not your fault.
just because your body had an orgasm doesn't mean you fully consented.
it's not your fault he convinced you otherwise