Is it normal to have persistent thoughts of violence/homicide?

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I've been having persistent thoughts and urges to kill someone. No one in particular really, just anyone aside from my family or friends, preferably someone who is alone. They started a couple weeks ago, and I'm not sure what to do about them. I'm somewhat afraid to mention them to my therapist in case I get thrown in some mental institute or something. I have thought of plans of ways to commit them depending on the situation and whomever it is that I am harming. This is pretty fucking scary for me, especially since part of me thinks its a good thing, while really I know it is in no way good. I suffer from depression and social anxiety which (along with being introverted in general) has caused me to isolate myself most of the time, which generally I have been comfortable with. They have also caused me to have suicidal ideation quite often too. Has this isolation caused these violent thoughts also? I'm not crazy, am I?

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  • FakeAccount1
    6 years ago | pl

    Sounds like you don't have enough hobbies/responsibilities

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  • Golias
    6 years ago | pl

    As long as you control yourself, there's no problem. And you don't need to be scared to go to some theurapist. The fact that you go there voluntarily proves you're not crazy.

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago | pl

    Most people have reasons for feeling depressed and socially anxious and deeply rooted anger is a common co-occurring emotion. If you've been abused, neglected, or discriminated against in the past, it's normal to experience violent thoughts and feelings. It is, however, something to be aware of, and if you think you might actually act on these thoughts and feelings, I urge you to seek help. Harming someone else would only add to your conflicted feelings and further complicate your life.

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  • YodaSocrates
    6 years ago | pl

    Hmmmmmm

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  • SoccaMama02
    6 years ago | pl

    You're not crazy but you should probably talk to your therapist about it and you shouldn't be scared or nervous because they have plenty of cases much worse than this and are trained to help you.

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  • Dink_219085_
    6 years ago | pl

    If going to a mental institution is the only reason you are not seeking help, then you should reconsider. I, personally, would rather be stuck in a mental institution for a bit trying to help myself, rather than be in prison for life due to acting upon homicidal thoughts. Also, there would be people there to understand you more, and possibly more people with similar thoughts.

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  • NickGorris
    6 years ago | pl

    Who wrote this. I need to be their friend?

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  • Finesotta
    6 years ago | pl

    Intrusive thoughts I had the same and got diagnosed to OCD don't let your mind keep you from going to somebody it helps

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  • Tsubakimasiato
    6 years ago | pl

    Do you have any supportive friends?? You should really try telling them so they can help cheer you up. And I do think that that's a bit crazy btw

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