Is it normal to hate yourself completely because of a boy? :/
I really needed to hear people's (who are not too close) opinion 'cause this is really killing me. Here's the story; I'm a high school girl who used to have a lot of confidence and loved everybody around me. I was even named as the school's hottie. Until a boy broke my heart. We were like friends, not too close though - but I fell for him! And as soon as I told it to my friend she then told him and he began flirting around. I was extremely happy back then. At the end of my first year in high school, we dated - we had dated in over a half year now. & what he always wanted is to have sex all the time! And because I loved him so much, I just did everything he wanted. After this half year, I find out from my friend (she doesn't go in the same school but knows him since I talk SO much about him, and cause he is a friend of her best friend too) that my so called boyfriend has been dating her best friend/our mutual friend in 3 months now, while dating me!! And she knew all about it our relationship but that he always told her that I mean nothing and she's his greatest love. Which I believe - they've never had sex!! At the moment I found out I even thought of killing myself!! Words can't describe what I feel now. He was everything to me, and it turned out he only used me. I feel like a huge joke for both of them. Like imagining all the times where she hang out with us, they were truly in love while I only was the puppet to satisfy him. Please how can I feel better? Everybody says that I'm waaaaay prettier than her, but of course look means nothing when it comes to love. Is it normal to be this upset?