Is it normal to hate other peoples happiness

This is not weird. You are mad at other people's happiness because u have none of ur own

I used to be that way too. I was really depressed, had a pretty crap life at the time, and I hated seeing others around me happy. I was getting worse and worse, and then I got help. My life is so much better now (not perfect, but nothing ever is), and I have learned to deal with the crap. I don't hate other's happiness anymore. I will admit I am sometimes a little jealous, but who isn't. I hope you can overcome this, since it's not fun, and it makes you more depressed. Good luck! :)

You sound depressed.

Keep faking it and working at it: social skills are learned. In time you'll get better at it, be ore comfortable and at ease with yourself & others. I think you may expect a lot of yourself I get disappointed. But buck up. Everyone feels more like you than you think.

Find a shrink, not because you're crazy, but because you need to learn some tools, and a shrink will help you develop them much more quickly than you would on your own. A good shrink will give you actionable tips and even exercises to do to help you get out of this mess a lot faster than going round in circles in your own head which as you can imagine is like a dog chasing it's own tail, you'll just get tired but you won't have gone very far from where you started.

Think when you go to a new gym and you see a whole lot of strange looking new machines, you have the option of just throwing yourself on the machines and possibly getting folded up in the mechanism and looking like an accident in a kids' cartoon or asking one of the trainers to get you started. You'll be able to get into an effective workout rhythm A LOT faster if the trainer gives you some tips and techniques. You are an only child, you were not very social before and you are now suddenly expecting your brain to invent a social you? You're like someone on a workout machine from Mars. Get the instructions - a shrink can help you with that.

I don't understand why people bother torturing themselves with ineffective mental gymnastics when there are professionals standing ready to essentially give you a cheat-sheet to life.

same problem dude, and yes you are right it will screw with your performance, speaking as a police explorer if you are not in the right state of mind it will become difficult to perform your duties. This has happened to me and is still happening, i like this girl so much i hate it when she smiles or laughs and it is not because of me, so don't know what to tell you man, you could try forgeting about it but to be honest that doesn't really work. The only advice i can offer is to try and forgive her, shes only human, and a girl at that.

because you are an extreme introvert, pretty much any social situation is going to be hard for you.

it is normal to envy others being happy when you don't feel any happiness.

about the girl: you know, timing is everything, and she already accepted a date from another, so maybe if you had asked sooner, she would have said yes to you. if she is involved with this other person, then it is not gentlemanly to pursue her. now that some time has passed, maybe there is something social coming up that you could ask her to. something to consider anyway.

we are all responsible for our own happiness. yes, things happen to us that we can't control, but we can control how we react to them. it is something some of us have to work harder at than others.

the boundaries you place on yourself are of your own making, although it isn't a simple thing if you are a quiet person, to change and become outgoing. but still, you placed the limitations there, so it is up to you to find a way to change them.

i hope you find a way to happiness and the responses you get are helpful.

by the way, faking being a social person is a good way to ease into becoming the socially outgoing person you envy. it eventually won't feel like faking, because it won't be.