Is it normal to hate/fear the thought of ever being married

i share the same fear with you because my parents also don't have a healthy relationship by far and every relative of mine they cheat have kids out of wedlock it's messed up. i truly believe that if you love someone was is there a need to trap them marriage is a impersonal institution, don't get me wrong i daydream about what my wedding dress will look like and the man i will marry one day so irrevocably in love with each other but from what i see i've been conditioned to believe that marriages do not work even though you might have good intentions form the start. love exists but somewhere somehow love will die so why bother?! Being with someone till death do you you part it's a great idea but it seems so unlikely in this day and age