hey sorry i havent replied to anyones comments yet, i kinda relapsed for a while with alcohol and heroin. which also had a knock-on effect on the things around me and i kinda forgot id even wrote this question lol
i joined NA about 5 weeks ago cos i got refered to doing group recovery shit by my drugs counsellor and people in the group suggested i go to NA. i found that everyone there had felt that same way at some point.
through the fellowship ive kinda found a place where i can go to talk about these feelings and thus ive gained a little bit of confidence in my sobriety. so much so that i havent touched heroin in nearly 2 weeks.
im still hating this sober feeling, whenever im not at the drugs centre or places that require me to be sober, i still smoke weed alot and always on my own. and ive been binge drinking when i cant sleep.
ive been getting a lot of cocaine and heroin cravings, i was even trying to score some heroin earlier today but eventually decided against it. cos i know that if i use again ill start lying to people again .
like i said i still hate the feeling of being sober but its slightly more 'managable' now for some reason. though it seems really scary to think of never being able to get loaded again and stuff cos that kind of life is the only way i really know. if any of that makes sense? anyway im just rambling now i shall stop now lol
is it normal to hate being sober?
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hey sorry i havent replied to anyones comments yet, i kinda relapsed for a while with alcohol and heroin. which also had a knock-on effect on the things around me and i kinda forgot id even wrote this question lol
i joined NA about 5 weeks ago cos i got refered to doing group recovery shit by my drugs counsellor and people in the group suggested i go to NA. i found that everyone there had felt that same way at some point.
through the fellowship ive kinda found a place where i can go to talk about these feelings and thus ive gained a little bit of confidence in my sobriety. so much so that i havent touched heroin in nearly 2 weeks.
im still hating this sober feeling, whenever im not at the drugs centre or places that require me to be sober, i still smoke weed alot and always on my own. and ive been binge drinking when i cant sleep.
ive been getting a lot of cocaine and heroin cravings, i was even trying to score some heroin earlier today but eventually decided against it. cos i know that if i use again ill start lying to people again .
like i said i still hate the feeling of being sober but its slightly more 'managable' now for some reason. though it seems really scary to think of never being able to get loaded again and stuff cos that kind of life is the only way i really know. if any of that makes sense? anyway im just rambling now i shall stop now lol