Is it normal to hate being around people?
I am a very needy person, and feel insecure if I'm not following someone around, yet when I'm in a group or even with one person, I find it incredibly difficult to care or concentrate on what's going on.
I can't listen hard enough to carry on a conversation -it literally tires me out!!!- and I just altogether don't understand how to make eye-contact. I actually feel irritated that people would even bother being in my presence, yet when I'm alone, I'll walk along with the first person I see.
I'm even getting distant with my very best friend, and when I get to visit her, I'm feeling guilty for not being friendlier. I even apologize for it.
Either way I feel amazingly awkward and hostile. Why??