Is it normal to find release in torturing small helpess animals?

I feel your pain, but you are more extreme then me. I usually just stuck with the slapping, punching and suffocating. I also felt the need to psychologically hurt the cat. The pain was only there to cause her mental turmoil. I often gave her love afterwards, and then hurt her again and so on. So I feel your pain. I had a bengal cat, so she was quite the fighter. Maybe that plays an iportant role in your "release". Someone strong like your dad. I too kinda hate him. He punched me in the stomach when I was 9 for being ill and caughing at night. He also locked me in rooms for dropping objects on the floor. The sick fuck just acts like it never hapened. No wonder I have no remorse when I "hurt" other people.