Is it normal to feel that you have to cry. but you don't want to?

When my friend Miranda died in a car crash this same thing happened to me.
I couldn't cry, and I really wanted to because I knew that everyone else was, and it made me feel sick just knowing that I was unable to cry.
It made me feel like maybe I hadn't cared about her as much as I should have.

Eventually, something clicked and I truly realized that she was gone. That's when I started bawling my eyes out. And now that it's been four years I know that I did care about her and that nothing was wrong with me when I couldn't cry.

Don't feel guilty about not knowing what to think. No one ever knows what to think. You're not alone. God bless you and your family and I wish you all the best.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Don't think about your actions, just let your body take care of that. Everyone handles the loss of a loved one differently, no one will judge you for how you react. Just let whatever feels natural happen. Families are an amazing thing. If you have a mum , siblings or grandparents now is the time to rely on, support and take care of one another. It hurts alot but you will all get through this. xoxo

So sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is. Take care!

I so feel for you. It's been 10 years since my parents died. My mother had brain cancer. I knew for years to try to accept it. Somehow you never really do. Before my mother died, my father suddenly died 6 weeks before her. I was in a fog for 3 years. I felt like an orphan. Like I had no one. Even though I have a husband and 2 kids. The funeral for my mom was tough. Feeling loss for both. You will get through it. It's tough, cried alot. My thoughts are with you.

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Everyone deals and heals differently. The tears will come naturally when you are ready.

First I am sorry to here about your dad I'm kinda into studing about. Cancer because my mom works at boca raton comunity hosbitak and is a cancer reasercher

crying is healthy. this isnt a breakup where its stupid to cry... its a death. dont force yourself to cry but dont hold back either

Or you don't have to be strong everyones process is different. Do whatever you feel like doing

Condolences for the passing in your family.
I think what you might be feeling is the need to be strong for the rest of family by indirectly not showing that much sadness around others. This is a good thing.. As you.. And your family need to know that even it's hard now.. Things will eventually be okay again.. And you're the one showing them that.
Have you taken a 'leadership' role in your family lately? This might be related to what I mentioned above.

(the above is purely opionated.. And I could be wrong)

Just some personal advice.. Cry all you want.. Don't let anyone tell you that you cannot cry. It's perfectly okay to be sad.. As you are right now.. And crying will somehow help with that.. Even if only a little.

Be strong at the funeral tomorrow.