Is it normal to feel guilty about spending money?
I'm a 20 yr old male going to college and in the summer I live with my parents. I don't have a job despite applying to over 40 places. My parents struggle financially because my mom was laid off and college of course costs a lot. The only money I get is $150 a month from my grandma, $50 of which goes towards a prescription.
I feel very guilty when I spend money because I am afraid I'll run out and have to ask my parents for more. I also feel guilty when I eat because it is my parents food. I try to eat as little as possible while still functioning. My typical food intake is an instant carnation for breakfast, ramen noodles for lunch, whatever is for dinner, and a bowl of oatmeal at night.
My question basically is, is it normal that I feel guilty about spending money and eating?