Is it normal to fanticize about being a sex victim?
When I was 8 I was molested by two teenage boys that were nieghbors of mine. My family just swept it under the rug when they discovered what had happened to me, and it was never spoke of again. My parents divorced and we moved away. This is the part that confuses and scares me, I now as an adult, for years I have fantisized about being raped. I'ts really the only thing that gets me aroused. I think of all kinds of ways it could happen. These thoughts really turn me on. I think of it when my boyfriend and I make love, we finish with me unsaticfied but he knows nothing of these fealings. I'm so confused, is there somthing seriously wrong with me? This wieghs so heavily on my mind and heart, please someone shed some light on this for me! Thanks.