Is it normal to fantasize about hurting someone who traumatized you

This is really touchy for me but I was cyberstalked online by a pedophile from like 7th grade to 10th grade. It really impacted me. I thought I was going to be r*ped or killed sooner than later, and I was paranoid beyond belief to the point where it still causes tension between me and my family. I'm adamantly against sexual assault in all forms, but recently I've found myself fantasizing about assaulting and physically hurting the guy who did that to me. I really dont know what to think of it. I know it's most likely a trauma response but it really gets to me ethically. I dont feel like I can bring this up with my therapist. Is this normal? What should I do?

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  • Tommythecaty

    I’ll get em 😈

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  • FromTheSouthWeirdMan

    So when you say fantasize is that like a sexual thing for you? Or is it like a sadistic thing? Theres a few people in my life that I would love to harm but im too lazy to put in the work. But if I ever get my golden opportunity I will take it.

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    • Tommythecaty

      Technically if it isn’t sexual it should be struck from the register as sadism, though there’s debate over it. De Sade’s works were almost entirely concerned with sexual violence, as well as his real life actions on occasion.

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  • Nightsinwhitesatin

    Yea that's normal

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  • RoseIsabella

    If someone harmed a pedophile in front of me I would act like I didn't see a thing.

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  • RoseIsabella

    Go take a self defense class so you can feel like you could defend yourself if necessary, and relax.

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    • Orphan

      No, u should never repress or minimize your trauma. U need to act upon it, your brain is made to protect u

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      • RoseIsabella

        I don't need to act upon anything, because I know I can kick someone's ass if I had to, so I prefer to relax secure in the knowledge that I can defend myself if necessary. I also don't want to go to jail, I'm way too soft, and pretty for the penitentiary.

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  • Puguento

    sim, eu acho normal. nunca passei por nada tão pesado. mas já sofri bullying, e as vezes tenho fantasias de eu fazer coisas não boas com quem me fez bullying

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