What you experienced - being willing to do it before orgasm, but not so keen after the event - is very common and totally normal.
I have wondered if this might not be an evolutionary thing. If our male ancestors loved the taste of their own spunk, they would have spent all their time whacking off and slurping it up themselves, rather than constantly trying to figure out how they could release it into a vagina.
I'm extremely uncomfortable with the idea that swallowing semen is humiliating and disgusting, because that means semen is seen as a foul, unclean substance, and it turns fellatio into a act of degradation and submission. That's never been how I've seen fellatio, and it's never been the dynamic at work when women have sucked me off, just as I've never considered it degrading to lick a woman's pussy.
If a guy thinks consuming his own semen is revolting, then it seems to me that says a lot about his views on sex and his own body, and none of it is positive. If a guy wants someone else to suck him off mainly because he considers that degrading, then that indicates he considers his own penis unclean and disgusting.
Semen is a non-waste product substance produced by your own body, and consuming it is no more disgusting than swallowing your own saliva or sniffing to clear your nose and swallowing the snot. Because it is produced by the sexual organs and the screwed-up, sex-negative delusions of ancient religious nuts are deeply embedded in our culture, doing anything with semen other than putting it in a vagina is considered taboo, but that, like many taboos, has no rational, logical basis.
As for what your parents might think about this, why the hell do you give a damn? Their sex life - if any - is none of your business, and what you do with your own body and the fantasies you play in your own head are none of their fucking business. As your parents, they might have reasonable grounds to be concerned about your welfare if you were going out and hanging with dubious characters in shady places IRL, but that's not what you're doing.
In one sense, I do think you're over-analysing this. However, maybe what's really going on is that you're starting to wonder if the messages you've got about sex and your body from the time you were small might just be a load of sex-negative, irrational, oppressive crap. Paradigm shifts - learning to see the world in a completely different way - are rarely comfortable, particularly when the established pattern has been sinking its claws into you since you were an infant.
Is it normal to eat your own cum?
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What you experienced - being willing to do it before orgasm, but not so keen after the event - is very common and totally normal.
I have wondered if this might not be an evolutionary thing. If our male ancestors loved the taste of their own spunk, they would have spent all their time whacking off and slurping it up themselves, rather than constantly trying to figure out how they could release it into a vagina.
I'm extremely uncomfortable with the idea that swallowing semen is humiliating and disgusting, because that means semen is seen as a foul, unclean substance, and it turns fellatio into a act of degradation and submission. That's never been how I've seen fellatio, and it's never been the dynamic at work when women have sucked me off, just as I've never considered it degrading to lick a woman's pussy.
If a guy thinks consuming his own semen is revolting, then it seems to me that says a lot about his views on sex and his own body, and none of it is positive. If a guy wants someone else to suck him off mainly because he considers that degrading, then that indicates he considers his own penis unclean and disgusting.
Semen is a non-waste product substance produced by your own body, and consuming it is no more disgusting than swallowing your own saliva or sniffing to clear your nose and swallowing the snot. Because it is produced by the sexual organs and the screwed-up, sex-negative delusions of ancient religious nuts are deeply embedded in our culture, doing anything with semen other than putting it in a vagina is considered taboo, but that, like many taboos, has no rational, logical basis.
As for what your parents might think about this, why the hell do you give a damn? Their sex life - if any - is none of your business, and what you do with your own body and the fantasies you play in your own head are none of their fucking business. As your parents, they might have reasonable grounds to be concerned about your welfare if you were going out and hanging with dubious characters in shady places IRL, but that's not what you're doing.
In one sense, I do think you're over-analysing this. However, maybe what's really going on is that you're starting to wonder if the messages you've got about sex and your body from the time you were small might just be a load of sex-negative, irrational, oppressive crap. Paradigm shifts - learning to see the world in a completely different way - are rarely comfortable, particularly when the established pattern has been sinking its claws into you since you were an infant.