Is it normal to do better at things while masturbating?
Okay, okay, I know the title sounds really weird and stupid. But I've come to this realization recently.
I'm normally really on edge due to anxiety all the time, and my heart races like a jackrabbit usually. But when I masturbate, I feel really at ease.
Sometimes when I play games or write stories, I come down with the urge to masturbate while doing so from time to time. Every time, no matter what game it is or what story I'm writing, I always do so much better during it than when I'm giving it my full attention regularly with both hands. Disgusting, I know, but it's the truth.
Obviously not in things that involve being around other people - because then that shit would just be gross. But when I'm alone playing video games, writing, studying, or whatever else - bar none, I'm at my peak when I masturbate during it.
Is there a scientific reason behind this, an emotional reason for it, or what? I reeeeeeally don't like admitting that to get serious at something I need to start stroking my dick to get fired up. Hell, that's why I haven't admitted it to anyone yet except posting on here.
Anyone have a similar situation with them? Or any ideas on how to do better normally at things rather than while fapping?
And for anyone who is going to inevitably ask, yes. Yes, I'm being dead serious here. This is not a troll post.