Ironically the day I just worked I was concerned I smelled because I didn’t have a chance to shower that day and it had been a few days. I won’t say that was it, though. I’ve seen them cluster amongst themselves often enough. Even if I try to go by them and join in a conversation it just always feels like I’m trying or efforting or I don’t fit in. Unless there’s something being talked about where we all really relate I guess.
They are all younger, early 20s, and I’m in my late 30s. Sometimes I think it’s an age thing. Sometimes it doesn’t bother me at all, especially if I am just doing my job. But it’s nice and fun to be joking along with someone else or have a good convo with your coworkers.
I definitely feel like I’m not being myself at all times there. I’ve caught myself acting like my manager, and I think I do it because something about her makes me uncomfortable and since I can’t figure out how to respond I just act like her because this is a job, that I need and want to be part of, at least initially.
It’s so hard to be yourself and not wear a mask while keeping a job and keeping things professional and respectful. I’m not a horrible person, I think this is more about hiding my feelings, acting like they don’t bother or hurt me when in fact it does.
IIN to constantly feel like your coworkers don’t like you?
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Ironically the day I just worked I was concerned I smelled because I didn’t have a chance to shower that day and it had been a few days. I won’t say that was it, though. I’ve seen them cluster amongst themselves often enough. Even if I try to go by them and join in a conversation it just always feels like I’m trying or efforting or I don’t fit in. Unless there’s something being talked about where we all really relate I guess.
They are all younger, early 20s, and I’m in my late 30s. Sometimes I think it’s an age thing. Sometimes it doesn’t bother me at all, especially if I am just doing my job. But it’s nice and fun to be joking along with someone else or have a good convo with your coworkers.
I definitely feel like I’m not being myself at all times there. I’ve caught myself acting like my manager, and I think I do it because something about her makes me uncomfortable and since I can’t figure out how to respond I just act like her because this is a job, that I need and want to be part of, at least initially.
It’s so hard to be yourself and not wear a mask while keeping a job and keeping things professional and respectful. I’m not a horrible person, I think this is more about hiding my feelings, acting like they don’t bother or hurt me when in fact it does.