Yea that's why it's a phobia. The worst part is the stress I put myself through in my own mind. I mean... I really thought I was a rapist and didn't even trust myself around women for like half a year after that first one.
The second one I was just so angry at myself.... it was just bad.
It's like... the worst part is that there's this faceless woman in my head just screaming her head off at me and a bunch of imaginary people taking her side. I start like... formulating my apology in my head, it's just so rediculous.
I'm so functional elsewise but with women I just... I swear sometimes I want to just be asexual. Except I still crave sex but it's extremely stressful!
IIN to be utterly terrified of hurting women in any way?
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Yea that's why it's a phobia. The worst part is the stress I put myself through in my own mind. I mean... I really thought I was a rapist and didn't even trust myself around women for like half a year after that first one.
The second one I was just so angry at myself.... it was just bad.
It's like... the worst part is that there's this faceless woman in my head just screaming her head off at me and a bunch of imaginary people taking her side. I start like... formulating my apology in my head, it's just so rediculous.
I'm so functional elsewise but with women I just... I swear sometimes I want to just be asexual. Except I still crave sex but it's extremely stressful!