Is it normal to be this self abusive

This is gonna turn into anorexia really fast.

I feel the same way, I'll run till I can't take anymore to the point that I'll feel sick and not want to eat at all.

Calling your self names an stressing so much about your weight is not going to help at all. Go for a brisk 25 min walk each day an u will b surprised.

I don't think it's normal, but I see where you're coming from. I moved back in with my parents and I'm at 170 (down from 175) but up from 150 when I moved in... They eat the worst food ever and it's always in the house. Potatoes are their only veggies. Fries, chips, instant, real. Tonight they're having "cheesy hashbrown hamburger helper and bread"
I'm having broccoli.. And maybe some almonds.
So, we're in a similar boat. :) Just keep trying. Try and try and try, but don't force yourself.

Why are you putting so much pressure to diet? Eat your 2,000 calories a day and get your ass on a treadmill for a hour a day. Exercise is how you lose weight and keep weight off.

Dieting by itself is a half-fast way to lose weight because as soon as you stray away from your diet, you will pile on the pounds more than the numa numa dude from Youtube.

I am and have been over-weight too and stressed myself out everyday. It gets you nowhere.
I found that when I took the "pressure" off myself to lose the weight ASAP, RIGHT NOW etc,...I've lost over 33lbs over the last few months, just eating better! Not even exercising yet!
I know if I turn this into another diet, it'll become WORK and I'll give up. I plan on starting to exercise when I'm ready! Please lighten up on yourself...and just try to do the little things: (take stairs instead, say no to at least one bad thing you normally wouldn't, go for grilled not fried etc,..stuff like that will turn into Lbs lost in no time! Good Luck

No it's not normal but I really understand your problem. I feel bad for you to be going through that. When I diet I feel like a positive attitude works wonders. Just try to stay positive and look forward to the goals that you set don't be too hard on yourself

You're obsessed. You need to lighten up and have fun! Ask your roomies to join a Zumba class or spinning class with you. Or go take walks together. Food is controlling your life, and it's a sad cycle. But you can do it.
Just take it one day at a time, one food choice at a time.
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WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU/ SO MANY PEOPLE ARE WORRIED ABOUT CALORIES! EARTH TO DUMBASS! CALORIES ARE ENERGY THAT YOU NEED TO BURN OFF! IF YOU DONT BUR THEM OFF, THEN THEY TURN INTO FAT!