I can totally feel where you're coming from in a sense here.
Anyway,I didn't read all of this but I mostly agree with hotshtt's first post, which you already answered back too.
But I too have been in this kind of situation with an anime character. Back in middle school one of my favorite shows was Full Metal Alchemist and I even use to write and read fanfiction for it. It stayed one of my favorite shows throughout middle school, but then when I started my first year in high school the main character Edward Elric meant a hell of a lot more to me.
I mean I always had a crush on his character and wrote multiple fics about him and my own OC's who always had personality traits of myself. But things changed in high school.
I developed social anxiety somewhere around the 6th or 7th grade, but I wouldn't really know or get properly diagnosed with that until my freshmen year in COLLEGE.
Okay so freshmen year in high school, I'd have friends and hang out with them, but compared to my life at home they seemed very boring and dull. At the time I use to think if I could I'd be totally content with being alone with "Edward Elric" and my other fictional characters I wrote up from other stories. They were my real friends, because I never let people close enough to show them the real me.
Anyhow, right after school would let out I'd be walking home but Edward would be right there with me walking me home too, asking how my day was, complaining about his day, and so on, and so on.
Sorry I tend to ramble A LOT as you can see. For a long time I was in love with "Edward Elric", I've never been in love so I think of him as kinda my first love. All the time though I knew we could never really be. I don't think I was ever bummed about knowing I'd never actually be able to be with him. His company to me was enough. I still have Edward here with me today and he is seen to me as a really precious friend who was there for me when I was going through a rough time. It started off with him acting just how he is on the show, but over time he kinda became his own person. Now the only similarities between my Edward and Full Metal Alchemist's Edward is there name and basic appearance.
You said above that you do have trouble forming relationships. I think you should talk to a psychologist about it. You don't have to go for the reason that you're in love with a fictional character. Go and talk about why you have problems forming relationship bonds, rather it be a lack of trust or other reasons, and the in love with a fictional character will definitely surface.
Haha no! I actually liked reading this. And yes, I see a lot of similarities with this. Though I do love my friends, offline and on, and whenever I have some sort of fondness for a guy, he's either taken, or I ''don't play my cards right.''
holy banana shit! I don't even remember writing this long comment!! haha I'm glad you enjoyed that overly long comment. (Now, if only I could write my fanfics this easy lol) :p Re-reading my post that was a crazy time for me, I'm always out and about with my friends now. As for the guy thing, the rare few ones I take interest in are usually taken too or I'm too much of a wimp to make a move >.>
XD Heheh. I like reading long stuff. And yeah, I find it easier to discuss than writing a fic or book....heh. And I KNOW RIGHT? There's this one guy I *kind of* have my eyes on but..he's really boring..
Is it normal to be THIS in love with a fictional character?
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I can totally feel where you're coming from in a sense here.
Anyway,I didn't read all of this but I mostly agree with hotshtt's first post, which you already answered back too.
But I too have been in this kind of situation with an anime character. Back in middle school one of my favorite shows was Full Metal Alchemist and I even use to write and read fanfiction for it. It stayed one of my favorite shows throughout middle school, but then when I started my first year in high school the main character Edward Elric meant a hell of a lot more to me.
I mean I always had a crush on his character and wrote multiple fics about him and my own OC's who always had personality traits of myself. But things changed in high school.
I developed social anxiety somewhere around the 6th or 7th grade, but I wouldn't really know or get properly diagnosed with that until my freshmen year in COLLEGE.
Okay so freshmen year in high school, I'd have friends and hang out with them, but compared to my life at home they seemed very boring and dull. At the time I use to think if I could I'd be totally content with being alone with "Edward Elric" and my other fictional characters I wrote up from other stories. They were my real friends, because I never let people close enough to show them the real me.
Anyhow, right after school would let out I'd be walking home but Edward would be right there with me walking me home too, asking how my day was, complaining about his day, and so on, and so on.
Sorry I tend to ramble A LOT as you can see. For a long time I was in love with "Edward Elric", I've never been in love so I think of him as kinda my first love. All the time though I knew we could never really be. I don't think I was ever bummed about knowing I'd never actually be able to be with him. His company to me was enough. I still have Edward here with me today and he is seen to me as a really precious friend who was there for me when I was going through a rough time. It started off with him acting just how he is on the show, but over time he kinda became his own person. Now the only similarities between my Edward and Full Metal Alchemist's Edward is there name and basic appearance.
You said above that you do have trouble forming relationships. I think you should talk to a psychologist about it. You don't have to go for the reason that you're in love with a fictional character. Go and talk about why you have problems forming relationship bonds, rather it be a lack of trust or other reasons, and the in love with a fictional character will definitely surface.
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Haha no! I actually liked reading this. And yes, I see a lot of similarities with this. Though I do love my friends, offline and on, and whenever I have some sort of fondness for a guy, he's either taken, or I ''don't play my cards right.''
Thank you for responding! :)
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holy banana shit! I don't even remember writing this long comment!! haha I'm glad you enjoyed that overly long comment. (Now, if only I could write my fanfics this easy lol) :p Re-reading my post that was a crazy time for me, I'm always out and about with my friends now. As for the guy thing, the rare few ones I take interest in are usually taken too or I'm too much of a wimp to make a move >.>
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XD Heheh. I like reading long stuff. And yeah, I find it easier to discuss than writing a fic or book....heh. And I KNOW RIGHT? There's this one guy I *kind of* have my eyes on but..he's really boring..