Is it normal to be scared to have sex?
I'm female and I'm 18. I'm still currently a virgin and I know it's not wrong to be one but I've often been pressured into the idea of sex. I want to have sex just to know what it feels like (and to get rid of my V card) but whenever I come close I end up just getting scared off. I just end up feeling gross. I'm also scared it'll hurt and or I'll get emotionally attached on accident and end up just hurting myself (I personally hate the idea of just a hookup). This may not be important but even trying to give a blowjob makes me sick to my stomach. It reminds me of just sucking on an uncooked hotdog but worse. At this point I'm even scared to be in a relationship because I can't go a month without feeling pressured to do something more. I don't want to waste anyones time so I don't bother anymore. So I guess I'm not only scared of sex but being in a relationship, but I also still want those things? I want them, I'm just scared of what will happen once I have them if that makes sense. I want to know if the way I feel is normal, and if you can I would love some advice. I'm sorry if this is just confusing.