Is it normal to be scared of clowns and then be one?

I'm really obsessed with clowns, I really want to be one. I always try to be a happier person, it doesn't help. I always think of myself as a clown. Thats all i want to be when i grow up. The Joker is my inspiration.
But, I am a loner, i have no friends, i'm not happy, and i'm not funny. But my darker side of me is a clown, He's called Jekor. He hates everyone, He is rage. i try not to let him out though, i dont want anyone getting hurt. i often talk to him and my Joker posters, I've already writin a song about him,
I'm inspired by clowns
I'm terrified of clowns
yet i want to be one, I know i'm a freak,
But i need help, I want help

Is It Normal?
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  • You dont need help, it will get better when you grow older

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  • So good fucking job, IIN!

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  • Ass.

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  • Everyone pretty much thinks clowns are creepy. I mean look how they are dressed! But the thing about clown's is they alway's have a spile on their face, because the kid's they aren't scaring, actually enjoy the goofy trick's and weird shapped balloons. The Joker is a movie character and everyone has someone they look up too.

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  • I am petrified of clowns...Yet i love the Joker...I wanna BE the Joker...... Gah! i don't know but i think you are normal...

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    • cool (Y) i get called names at school :0 :L and aparently i 'bum' my posters

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  • Yeah, you guys could have helped this person, if my hunch is right, and prevented the deaths of 12(13) people.

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  • Do you happen to like ICP? (Insane Clown Posse) Good music.

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