Is it normal to be scared my father will kill the family/himself?
My parents constantly have problems and have contemplated divorce. However, my father doesn't want to divorce, due to the fact that the only thing he has is his close family, (Just my mother, and her children, he is no longer close to his own mother and siblings.) My mother is hesitant about divorce because my siblings are too young to properly comprehend the idea and reason behind their divorce, and because both her and I are in complete belief that he will kill himself if he loses full custody of all my siblings. I haven't mustered the courage to discuss this with my mother, but I also believe that if he doesn't kill himself first, he will kill at least one of the members of our family before taking his own life. It's a daily and constant worry in my life, and it's affecting everything, from my social to educational performance. I often stay up at night due to this crippling fear, and worst of all, I know that it's not irrational.