I am myself suffering from this phobia since childhood. I don't think it is normal as I haven't so far met anyone else who has this infinitely deep fear. Now I am glad there are others like me. You should be glad as well. Its actually called Apeirophobia. But one single word is far too small to describe it. Here is how I tried to express it (ofcourse this is also not sufficient to describe it).
"When I was a child, never ending property of time came to my mind. Such a horrifying thought it was, and I was shy to ask anyone around. It made me sick. Will I never end? Does that mean I have to be here or somewhere forever? Philosophical learning and possibilities of heaven and enlightenment were not enough to console me. What after that? I would always fear. Will I never end? I wouldn’t believe those who said death would end you. I wasn’t proud of this fact; I was completely horrified with this thought. I could understand to some extent that my body would be buried so that would end it, but not end it all. The way I feel, my consciousness, has not much to do with my body, if body is killed what would happen to me? Will I feel helpless all the time waiting for it to be over and just watch the eternal sequence of events without being able to do anything (only thing one could want is to get out of it) as they go forward in never ending time? Will I never end?"
Is it normal to be scared by the thougt of eternity?
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I am myself suffering from this phobia since childhood. I don't think it is normal as I haven't so far met anyone else who has this infinitely deep fear. Now I am glad there are others like me. You should be glad as well. Its actually called Apeirophobia. But one single word is far too small to describe it. Here is how I tried to express it (ofcourse this is also not sufficient to describe it).
"When I was a child, never ending property of time came to my mind. Such a horrifying thought it was, and I was shy to ask anyone around. It made me sick. Will I never end? Does that mean I have to be here or somewhere forever? Philosophical learning and possibilities of heaven and enlightenment were not enough to console me. What after that? I would always fear. Will I never end? I wouldn’t believe those who said death would end you. I wasn’t proud of this fact; I was completely horrified with this thought. I could understand to some extent that my body would be buried so that would end it, but not end it all. The way I feel, my consciousness, has not much to do with my body, if body is killed what would happen to me? Will I feel helpless all the time waiting for it to be over and just watch the eternal sequence of events without being able to do anything (only thing one could want is to get out of it) as they go forward in never ending time? Will I never end?"