Is it normal to be obsessed with this song?

Ever since I discovered the song "Ruru's suicide show on a livestream" I've been obsessed with the song and the music video. It was based off a real girl. But I feel like I can relate to the song on some level every time I hear it and come up with my own "music video" in my head with like similar sad scenarios like the real one. But imagining I am the character in the music video. You see, I discovered the song at the same time that I was being cyber-bullied by a lot of people online to the point where I felt like doing something I shouldn't... I really wanted to just disappear. But then I found that song and it just stopped me and I started crying. I believe it stopped me from doing something like that. Listening to it makes me remember to keep living despite the bullies. Lots of people say it is disrespectful to enjoy the song just because of its message or to attach any meaning to it, but I can't help being obsessed with the song. I just feel this feeling every time I listen to it that's like goosebumps and this sad feeling like I want to cry, but also a happy feeling at the same time, like I'm not alone, it's a bittersweet feeling. Is it ok to be obsessed with this song despite the meaning behind it?

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  • greekfish

    Yeah it is okay because it sounds like you are just identifying with the lyrics which can actually be fairly healthy.

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  • Notyourmother

    It is good that listening to and identifying with the song helped you. I have been in similar situations feeling bad about myself but then listening to certain songs where the singer relates to how I am feeling helps. It is always good to feel as though you are not alone and that there is someone else who understands.

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  • Tinna2002

    Yes it is normal just be respectful of the girl in the video

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    • the girl in the video is an anime character

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