Is it normal to be jealous,angry and to bully bullies

Is it Normal that I am Young Martial Artist who is and has currently been currently studying chinese kenpo, chinese boxing,and kick boxing from my Step-father at Night Secretly because of the wannabe bullies since 2007. Basicaly my brothers and I learn from my awesome step dad. we are pretty good my brothers and I. But one of my older Brothers is extremly good. The guy learned 5 katas in 1 day. And sometimes I get really jealous and I mean Mad. Be cause he trains so simple and is great and learns anything without any effort. I train Hard and complex but learn slow and gradually. No one can beat me at school I have a chin and raw power. My other friends who study Muy thai,Bjj,Boxing and greco roman( they come close but I always end up on top even though there was this one kid who studied bujikan idk what but he was so big and fast but wierd) can't either but He can beat me with out even throwin a single punch,u know with gestures idk I freeze up like ice and loose all knowledge of our traning its like he is bruce lee and Im bolo. I don't like losing face evening in private and I have a temper and he is calm and naturaly gifted.Oh yeah My Step father,Sensai and mentor can beat us both( thank u for the support and Im sorry for my anger). but Is It Normal for me to feel Jealous and envious thus contridicting the very essence of Martial Arts and vaules Installed in me. Plus recently last year all my Friends who study Martial arts Left 4 college, the Marine Corp or just are all googly eyed over thier loud GF's. Im in jrotc and want to go navy after college but people say my temper will hurt me. Im not a bully, I actually try to help my friends who get bullied by kicking thier bullies noses in. BuT now Every is calling me Kobra Kai b/c I hip tossed this fat wierd kid who kept toching me and grabing like he had no home traing(I knw I was wrong and he was ok after). And when I get mad I just prove what they claim to be true and self evident. They can't hurt me with fist but that STUPID WORD cuts and sinks like a arrow . I pretend to be humble but Im starting to feel like the bad guy. Am I really a jealous bully who hates ppl like me? Is it Normal to be Jealous and angry all the time.

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Based on 43 votes (30 yes)
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  • There is a difference between planned fighting and actual fighting. Trust me when i say this, Learning all of those doesnt make you unstopable infact i have seen quite a few people who practice alot of martial arts and still end up on their ass by someone who teaches themselfes their own moves.
    Basicly what im saying is dont get over confident because a school fight is just a school fight one day you will notice learning so much martial arts doesnt give you much of an edge when fighting people on the street.
    Not to mention i myself have beat someone who thought that just because they do martial arts that they cant loose and im not trying to brag but he was supposible one of the "Bad asses" that you dont fuck around with.
    Basicly what im saying is dont be over confident because there are always thousands more people better than you even if they havent trained up in a particular fighting style.

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    • barter1

      seems like your whole fighting thing as given an edge to you that has gone way over healthy competition, especially since its close to home and within the family.
      i agree in the advice theres always someone better and more unfortunate than you. be grateful for the fact you are top of the class, and also just for the most simplest things in life. I think alot of looking down and sizing yourself up against others is borne out of competition. Its when it goes to jealousy feelings that it becomes bad, sportsmanship wise and for you personally. Jealousy will eat you up if you keep on dwelling on it. Be happy for your opponents if they win, don't be a sore loser. Lose gracefully. Not the end of the world. the fact you are questioning if your behaviour is normal or not, is a sign you are doubting what you are doing at the moment. Don't compare yourself to your mates, differentiate yourself by doing things YOU want, in YOUR way, at YOUR speed and do them to the best of YOUR ability and within YOUR means. Your Martial Arts values and skills can only go so far, compared to your innate skill of using your own common sense and knowledge of self worth to achieve bigger and better things. then you won't have to worry about being angry about falling short all the time. To fight because you are mad is probably the reason why they are using the stupid word. Theres other ways of fighting bullies outside of physically taking it out on them.

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      • Em dude i didnt submit this story? lol

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        • barter1

          oh sorry about that. my bad. advice was directed to the initial writer

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    • also it is not the stlye but the fighter. No stlye is superior they all lack something the other has.

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      • RomeoDeMontague

        This is kind of what a bully is. They are insecure and they try to make everyone feel like shit to make themselves feel better.

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      • exactly my point and being strong is only part of fighting but there are people who take things more further than fighting and start being the type of people that fighters cant win against.
        Just remember this attitude you have will attract the people that will eat you up in a second. i suggest a change.

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    • P02apl4aKEnpokid

      I agree with u 100%,I know Im not unstopable. I used to loose alot. But I learned from it. I know little about street fighting. I also know those cowards try to jump me. I recently moved and I don't have those problems anymore. Basicaly I can protect myself. The reason I win may not be because of my background. I win because I work hard and I want it more. No one is unstopable not even Bruce lee. and yes there is always some one better,my brothers are better to most ppl. But I have something they lack HEART,but what is heart with no control. I have never given up in my life. Hardwork will always beat pure lazy talent. Nothing has ever come to me easy because I work for it.

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  • You don't live in Tucson by any chance?

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    • P02apl4aKEnpokid

      no,why!.never been.

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  • aussiewolf

    no its not normal.

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  • Your whole story just seems like one big lie to me

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  • good luck to you, try and keep it secret,surprise is your defence against strong, if they get there hands on you, uh oh

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    • P02apl4aKEnpokid

      strong as diamonds, sometimes I play the victim. Its really funny. They never see it coming. Thanks for insight.

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      • a small hit from a hammer will smash a confident diamond to smithereens tho

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        • P02apl4aKEnpokid

          lol..

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    • I wouldnt say suprise would be a strong point for him/her because like he/she said he/she is an angry person which means they dont have the patience to be smart about things and plan a suprise move.

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      • P02apl4aKEnpokid

        lol, hey Im working on it go to classes and every thing. I have Patience sometimes. lets just say Im a knuckle head

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        • Having patience sometimes doesnt mean you are patient it just means sometimes you are bored believe me when i say your brinze wont meet up with the brains of the people in the outer world.
          I suggest the change in attitude because if you stay that way the people in this world will eat you up easily.

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