Is it normal to be horrified after sex?
I am an 18 year old male, I have had 14 sexual partners in my life time. Regrettably, most have been fledgling relationships that have ended horribly due to sex. I Usually have great success when I pursue a girl I like. Things go great until my normal sexual drive brings things to the point of sex. Now, I am a guy so once I am to this point I am fully aroused and ready to have sex so it has normally happened. I am always safe, even reiterating my fear to the girl I am with prior to any sexual activity. Nevertheless, once my primal needs are satisfied, I fall into a deep guilt and I become absolutely horrified of becoming a father and getting tied down. I have spent vast amounts of money on "morning after pills" even though I always wear a condom. I push the girl away emotionally for fear of becoming a father. I will sleep for only an hour or so at a time, barely eat and become deeply depressed and seriously angry until I learn of the girl getting her period. Then it seems like the cycle repeats itself. Is it normal for me to feel this guilty, horrified, scared or just plain awful after having normal safe sex? please help me!