Is it normal to be bored enough to harm others?

I can't control myself. When I think of killing someone I get really excited. Not even sexually, just like how a child would get excited to go to the zoo. I'm not like this all the time. It's usually when I get bored with life which happens maybe once every other month and lasts anywhere from a day to a week. Being bored like that makes me feel like I'm literally dying. Rotting away. And it won't stop unless I take it out somehow.
I pick the people I can show this side to very carefully, if I don't have anyone I'm comfortable with around I project this onto myself and self harm. This is why I've never gotten in trouble despite actually cutting people in dangerous places like wrist and neck. (Except for one time when I lost it with my brother and my dad said he would call the police.)
For as long as I can remember people have had a certain level of fear towards me. I was stronger than most other girls in my class and even though it made me feel isolated and alone I couldn't stop. It was harder to hide it back then so people knew.
I can see myself and I can see that I'm hurting others. I want to stop but it's like I can't get through to myself.
Now, is this normal? And if not what do I do to stop it?

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Based on 33 votes (5 yes)
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Comments ( 12 )
  • Babygirl17

    Seek help before you harm someone.

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  • Whatintarnation

    Not normal to enjoy hurting other people. Seek professional help before you do anything else stupid.

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  • pantaloonz

    Definitely seek professional help immediately

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  • Aethylfritha

    No. Not at all.

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  • IndieIsAwesome

    Im being honest here - Before you injure someone let your dad call the cops without hesitating because you do not want end up murdering someone because then your sentenced to death, trust me its not nice.

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  • qwertyuiop123456789

    You are a what people call a psychopath. and as we all know from history it is not good when a psychopath gets bored please go to a doctor.

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  • itachi_uchiha

    Nooo its not normal get help ASAP.. but I think I saw almost the same post last week why are you asking again

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  • Pumpurrnickel

    Talk to someone who can help you. Get more hobbies. Try new things. Don't kill anyone or harm yourself.

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    • Alichael

      Yeh

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  • Lolacola73

    That's extremely scary that you want to hurt people when you're bored. Most people would think about normal things when bored and I think you should see a shrink before you do harm someone.

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  • Alichael

    Some people believe this to be real Redneck-way-out-in-the-boondocks mentality where they are so uncouth, untamed, ignorant, and end up snapping from extreme boredom, that ignorant violence becomes uncontrollable. Which explains why sometimes the furthest off the beaten path towns are full of crazy rednecks. However, I don't believe anything I just stated is fully accurate. I was just stating a myth, and maybe occasionally there are towns sort of like that. But I'm sure that's not the normal small town. I think the OP here has his own personal issues.

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    • RoseIsabella

      Inbred maybe?

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