Is it normal to be attracted to morbid things so much?

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When i was a little girl, and every other little girl dreamed about being a ballerina or something, i dreamed about forensic pathology. I've always been drawn to beautiful things and i'm studying fashion now which i really enjoy, but i have this other side which is sexually attracted to murderers and obsessed with sad and terrible things... i find so much beauty in decaying buildings, especially prisons/asylums... places that have always been filled with sorrow and frustration i guess... can anyone relate to this? i keep watching stories and reality things about school shootings, serial killers, painful medical procedures of the past... i find such complex beauty in it... and death, when was about 6 or so i would cut closer and closer to my wrists, sit on the edge of the roof, do things that felt close to dying. I still dream about these things. And it's so frustrating because, i guess when you see a beautiful dress, you buy it, when you see good food you eat it... but this weird obsession is impossible to feed. Its so inspiring, but what am i supposed to do with it without dying or ending up in prison for life? Is this normal?

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  • dirtybirdy
    10 years ago | pl

    I can relate to this. The decaying buildings like prisons and such, I think they are so interesting and beautiful and i'd love to explore them and take pictures of them. I love the peeling paint and the rust. I'm also very interested in serial killers and things like that. I used to watch Faces of Death all the time and i grew up watching gory movies and was always on rotten dot com when I first heard of it. I loved the show Most Evil and watched a marathon of serial killer biographies pretty recently. I forget the forensics show I used to watch all the time but I loved that too. I also used to like to be up on high things right at the edge and leaning over. Its just very interesting stuff to some people.

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    • howaminotmyself
      10 years ago | pl

      You just reminded me of a small obsession I had in high school where I would seek out dilapidated barns to photograph. I love dilapidated barns.

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      • dirtybirdy
        10 years ago | pl

        Awesome. I have a nice camera that I haven't used in ages. Now that my workload has been greatly reduced, I think I'll finally buy a damn battery and go exploring for decrepit things.

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  • kelili
    10 years ago | pl

    When I was a little girl I wanted to be an actress

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  • Helter-Skelter
    9 years ago | pl

    I'm exactly the same! I'm very intrigued by the darker things :)

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  • Vegeta_Brief
    10 years ago | pl

    I've seen some pretty morbid things in my life, most of them caused by me.

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