Is it normal to be ashamed of my sexuality!?
I am horribly ashamed of my sexuality. I am a heterosexual male and it kills me. I have no visual attraction to women, and yet I have sexual feelings for them.
Women are small, weak and frail with random lumps of fat in areas of their body that they love to call "curves" and slimy, blood leaking holes for genitalia and they have no problem arguing for hours on end with each other who has nicer lumps of fat and which lumps of fat are better dispersed in which areas. They're so vain that it is pathetic.
I once tried to be with a man. He was everything that I could have wanted in a man, strong, intelligent, handsome, but when it came down to it I could not perform. I had no sexual attraction to him and finding out this way broke both of our hearts. I am ashamed that women still hold my sexuality.
The thought of having to spend my time with a woman whose gender only exists to breed more helpless hungry mouths and use their bodies to obtain resources that men have worked so hard for rather than getting off their backs and doing their own work is a fate worse than death to me.
To come home every day to a whiny parasite and a woman that needs to be cared for like a child and will most likely whine that I don't bring her enough money to spend on pointless Gucci purses and whines that I don't treat her right even though in reality the entirely of the female sex would be useless and discarded if they were not needed for continuation of the species.
It kills me that my sexual desires are for these unevolved, unintelligent and much too highly regarded species. I'd much rather be with a male, but I can not do it. I just can't. Is there anyone out there that knows what I am going through?
By the way, I have asked this question at advice websites before so if you were going to accuse me of being a basement dwelling virgin instead of answering my question, don't. I have a good career, own my own home and vehicle and have dated many women, but only because instinct forces me to.