Is it normal to be an impotent male by think about sex constantly
I spent most of my life at sea and decided that marriage to a woman would make me a bigamist as I was already married to the sea. I spent 4 years in the Navy, then went to a Merchant Marine university, got a degree and a Mates ticket. I did smoke for a few years, but quit, and have never done much drinking. I have been a lot of places, been with many women, some I paid for and some not. Mostly I saved my money, and made some investments that made it through the recession in great shape. About 10 years ago I turned up with prostate cancer. I went on the beach for a few months, got the problem solved, but when it was over I was left with very tricky urinary problems and impotent. Because the nerves are cut, none of the pills work. I tried injections, but they don’t work either. The pumps are just absurd. Yet, I think about sex and dream about sex constantly. I’ve tried to relive this by watching porn, reading porn, writing porn stories, but nothing helps. I know that no woman would want to try a relationship with someone like me the way I am. But I am feeling very embarrassed about going to see a pay for play woman when all I want to do is just be held and hold her and touch her while wearing a diaper so I don‘t leak all over the place. I know my situation is not normal, but given where I am, is it normal to be afraid to go see a prostitute?