I don't know- with me I start to believe my own happy face, you know? I do have happy spells sometimes, but they're becoming few and far between. But I guess when that happens it's just me FORCING myself to be happy. And I really hope I'm not diagnosably depressed. because I really don't want to ask for help. I mean, if I went to a doctor to give me anti-depressants, my sister would never let me forget it, saying that I was a big baby and that her life is way harder than mine and i'm just being dramatic, even though she smokes enough pot to make a brain-dead person sing with joy. it took me the longest time to decide to get on here and ask for help, and most of the reasons I did are because there's nobody who knows who I am on here. I'm sorry I'm not much help. Maybe less stress would help? that's a genaric answer for any question :/
I think I could be diagnosed with depression... I've researched my thoughts and feelings online and it seems to be called "Atypical Depression". I try to combat these feelings with sport and excercise you know, healthy stuff. I don't want to talk to my parents about what I'm feeling coz they have this wierd way of making anything bad/wrong seem like its ''YOUR fault'' NEVER thiers.
I think my feelings have become more prevalent since I started university (2 months ago). I hate it because I'm not studying what I want to... And its my parents fault that I'm stuck studying BS I have no interest in. Its having such an adverse affect on me... I've even gone as far as cutting all ties with my high school friends (I closed my fb and hardly reply to SMSs). Its not as if I hate them or anything, its just that it seems like all them are happy and studying what they want to. Its as if they're happines is bringing me down.
Is it normal to always want to be alone?
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I don't know- with me I start to believe my own happy face, you know? I do have happy spells sometimes, but they're becoming few and far between. But I guess when that happens it's just me FORCING myself to be happy. And I really hope I'm not diagnosably depressed. because I really don't want to ask for help. I mean, if I went to a doctor to give me anti-depressants, my sister would never let me forget it, saying that I was a big baby and that her life is way harder than mine and i'm just being dramatic, even though she smokes enough pot to make a brain-dead person sing with joy. it took me the longest time to decide to get on here and ask for help, and most of the reasons I did are because there's nobody who knows who I am on here. I'm sorry I'm not much help. Maybe less stress would help? that's a genaric answer for any question :/
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I think I could be diagnosed with depression... I've researched my thoughts and feelings online and it seems to be called "Atypical Depression". I try to combat these feelings with sport and excercise you know, healthy stuff. I don't want to talk to my parents about what I'm feeling coz they have this wierd way of making anything bad/wrong seem like its ''YOUR fault'' NEVER thiers.
I think my feelings have become more prevalent since I started university (2 months ago). I hate it because I'm not studying what I want to... And its my parents fault that I'm stuck studying BS I have no interest in. Its having such an adverse affect on me... I've even gone as far as cutting all ties with my high school friends (I closed my fb and hardly reply to SMSs). Its not as if I hate them or anything, its just that it seems like all them are happy and studying what they want to. Its as if they're happines is bringing me down.