Is it normal that when im bored i get a wierd feeling ijm being watche

Ah, but you are! The NSA is EVERYWHERE, and I'm sure you are of considerable interest to them, which is why they are devoting millions of dollars in resources each day just to watch YOU.

When im bored -- which is always -- i am sad that nobody at all is watching me.

Perhaps, sometimes, you ARE being watched. You should make full use of it by baring your breasts & pussy & fingering your clitoris!