Is it normal that the older i get, the more cold i become?
When I was in high school, I was such a happy go lucky guy. I loved everybody and had such a good heart. I would look for the positive in every person and everything.
As time went on, my mentality changed a lot. I got my heart broken, had a few friends and family members die, and basically lost sight of any reason to live.
I'm not in that deep depression anymore, but I was thinking about it and realized that I am slowly becoming a bitter person. Bitter about the way people have treated me in the past. Bitter about losing people close to me for no reason. Bitter about how people will take advantage of anybody with a good heart. Bitter about how fucked up the world is and how most people have to live through hell while a few people live it up.
I feel like I'm becoming so desensitized to everything. I haven't been able to have real feelings for a girl in years (I've even tried to force myself). I find that I don't really care about anything that much. The older I become the more disillusioned I become. IIN?