I actually can't believe how much your post sounds like me. Honestly, I've always sucked at math, but the other subjects I seemed to do really well in. Everybody has their weak points. Not a big deal. I've never been in special ed before, but I've felt the same way as you. When I was little I was tutored in math.
At my job I kinda act like a different person. I think I'm a little socially awkward there, and thats why I come across ditzy sometimes. I'm just uncomfortable there. I feel like a lot of times I'm being psychoanalyzed. I guess, I just feel like acting ditzy is the best way to cover up how uncomfortable I'm feeling. I can be shy sometimes, and it takes me time to warm up to people. But once I do, I'm like a totally different person. I feel like people don't understand that about me. I'm more reserved, and its hard to explain myself, and I always feel like I have to.
People at my work did spread a nasty rumor around about me, saying that I act so slow all the time. It really bothered me. And still does to be quite honest. But ironically, the people who say that have never hung out with me in their lives before. They don't know me outside of that place. Its all hearsay. This one guy from my work took me out to dinner, and said that he couldn't believe how different I was from what I portray myself as at work. But it kind of offended me when he told me that he was shocked by how much smarter I actually am when I'm not there. And I don't know why I act so weird there, honestly. Everybody there seems to think I'm a dumbass.
However, when I was in college, I wasn't shy at all. I felt so comfortable there. I had so many friends, and people said I was really smart. I won an award for an essay I wrote in my english class. Unfortunately, I still suck pretty bad in math. Lol.
People are arrogant. They probably just don't understand you, so they chalk it up to; 'that girl is slow'. We have a lot of arrogant people in this world. Arrogant people would believe anything. You just have to say fuck 'em! And you don't have to explain yourself to people either. Don't let them ever make you feel that way. I don't make people explain themselves, so I shouldn't have to either. Thats the way I see it. I hate that feeling as though I'm obligated to.
Is it normal that sometimes I feel mentally retarded?
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I actually can't believe how much your post sounds like me. Honestly, I've always sucked at math, but the other subjects I seemed to do really well in. Everybody has their weak points. Not a big deal. I've never been in special ed before, but I've felt the same way as you. When I was little I was tutored in math.
At my job I kinda act like a different person. I think I'm a little socially awkward there, and thats why I come across ditzy sometimes. I'm just uncomfortable there. I feel like a lot of times I'm being psychoanalyzed. I guess, I just feel like acting ditzy is the best way to cover up how uncomfortable I'm feeling. I can be shy sometimes, and it takes me time to warm up to people. But once I do, I'm like a totally different person. I feel like people don't understand that about me. I'm more reserved, and its hard to explain myself, and I always feel like I have to.
People at my work did spread a nasty rumor around about me, saying that I act so slow all the time. It really bothered me. And still does to be quite honest. But ironically, the people who say that have never hung out with me in their lives before. They don't know me outside of that place. Its all hearsay. This one guy from my work took me out to dinner, and said that he couldn't believe how different I was from what I portray myself as at work. But it kind of offended me when he told me that he was shocked by how much smarter I actually am when I'm not there. And I don't know why I act so weird there, honestly. Everybody there seems to think I'm a dumbass.
However, when I was in college, I wasn't shy at all. I felt so comfortable there. I had so many friends, and people said I was really smart. I won an award for an essay I wrote in my english class. Unfortunately, I still suck pretty bad in math. Lol.
People are arrogant. They probably just don't understand you, so they chalk it up to; 'that girl is slow'. We have a lot of arrogant people in this world. Arrogant people would believe anything. You just have to say fuck 'em! And you don't have to explain yourself to people either. Don't let them ever make you feel that way. I don't make people explain themselves, so I shouldn't have to either. Thats the way I see it. I hate that feeling as though I'm obligated to.
:( I know how you feel.