Is it normal that only extreme and taboo porn and subjects turn me on?

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So here it is. I have felt shame, insecurity, self hatred, ambivelance, and fear because of the things I am turned on by, and get off on. I have also felt excited, euphoric, happy, horny, aroused, and orgasmic over the very same thing.

As a kid I jerked off to sears catalogs, then to playboys, then later in life to some horribly amazing things. I am not gay but from the time I was 13 have let boys blow me and had no problem shooting a load in their mouth. I never returned the favor, but did jerk off a handful of friends during my school years. I never was attracted to the boys. But head is head after all. At 13 I would have sex with my gf, then ride my. Ike to my buddies house and he would suck all her juice off my pecker and swallow a load. This stopped when I graduated and went on to lead normal life. Dated girls only, thought gay was gross, and was never once turned on by thought of beastiality, tranny sex, or child porn. The last being something I am still fully against, and think those who do it should be locked up for life.

But when I turned 30 I lived alone and spent too much time naked online stroking it. Found tranny porn and loved it. Beastiality was and is among my favorite. Then at a friends house while on his computer I found a stash of kiddie porn videos. Hundreds. Kids with kids. Kids with adults. Kids in group orgies with other kids. They all seemed so willing, none were forced, and no physical pain was evident. What was evident was my erection and I came without ever touching myself. And I came hard. I eventually made copies secretly and took them to another friends house who I watch porn and j/o with, and watched him go from shock, to disgust, to hard to shooting a rope across the room. So now I only like those types of porn. Extreme. Beast and bitches, piss, tranny, real rough shit, and if I could ever get any, child porn. I know the laws, and the moral, ethical, and horrible effects this has on the children involved, but it is so hot. I befriend women I know to have been molested and coax their stories out so I can get off on it.

I'm at least honest about it. Who else is?

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  • Avant-Garde
    11 years ago | pl

    The justice system really needs to bring back medieval torture. You need to be locked up in a iron maiden or put inside the iron bull. People like you don't deserve to live! I hope The cops find you and you get executed on the electric chair. Crawl in a hole and die, you pathetic excuse for a human!

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  • ToxicCrayons
    10 years ago | pl

    Honestly, I'm the same.

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  • ViMarie
    11 years ago | pl

    I think it's normal. I'm a straight girl and I think beastiality and tranny vids are hot. And even tho the few kiddie porns I've watched have turned me on I think child porn is horrible and I refuse to watch it now. Don't let people tell you youre horrible cause of what turns you on. I'm sure they have their own skeletons on their closets.

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    • aubreyskye
      10 years ago | pl

      If little children turn you on...YOU ARE HORRIBLE. Don't kid yourselves.

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    • Avant-Garde
      10 years ago | pl

      You clearly need a wake up call. If child porn excites you that means YOU ARE a horrible person. You are a pathetic excuse which makes you less than human.

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  • moomus
    11 years ago | pl

    You need shooting. Enough said sicko.

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  • aubreyskye
    10 years ago | pl

    You're disgusting and I hope you never come into contact with little ANY little kids. It's sick people like you who perpetuate child pornography. If there wasn't a market for it, then disgusting people wouldn't make these videos/pictures etc. to begin with. You want to do all that other sick shit...FINE. But you need to get children OUT of your mind NOW. You should already be in prison just for watching it.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago | pl

    "I have felt shame, insecurity, self hatred, ambivelance, and fear because of the things I am turned on by, and get off on."

    If you're not a troll (and I do suspect you are), then I suggest that you get a clue already.

    Then again, I almost hope that you DON'T stop, just so someone can eventually catch you in the act and shatter your bones.

    It's up to you, really.

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  • toofgod
    10 years ago | pl

    There is nothing abnormal with beginning with a sears catalog and ending with beast and piss shit porn. If all you do is jackoff your whole life then you get to the point were you always have to one up the previous jack. Anyways child porn fuckers get shot without regret.

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  • Cheese123
    9 years ago | pl

    Children are mentally incapable of giving informed consent. Therefore, you are profiting from child rape.

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