Is it normal that nothing ever seems to make me happy?

rdy to read a lil?

I feel u there,it's ur personality. psychiatrists n ppl dont give a shit,ppl who dont care when u tell em something will just bring u down. u know whats worse than being unhappy,when ur in a situation that forces u to do something u dont want to do at all.ppl tire u right? like laughing even tho u dont find it funny. well n society sees being not happy as bad,what if it's alright tho? always thought it's sick how we keep trying to find happiness,so foolish. don't waste ur time thinkin bout stuff like that,theres not one reason why we're here. someone important to me died and ambulance men treated that dying man like shit. would love to beat those fucks up someday n no one cared bout him he had no relatives,u know.it's rly not worth that thought,less is to cut urself,i dont quite get that exchange one pain for another pain thing,society feels like pure shit for one who isn't known n isnt seen as god like actors or singers,as long as u decide to live,do somethin to entertain urself,playing games or stuff,makes staying worthwhile