Is it normal that no matter what deep down i can never trust anyone

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It's really pretty simple no matter who they are my friends, my family, or anybody. I can not completely trust them. People always somehow let me down and somehow it's usually when I need them the most. The worst part is that's it's fucking lonely like this. I've tried to be close with people, but it always ends up biting me in the ass because they use shit I've told them against me. I'm only 20 and so many people including my family think I'm an alcoholic which truthfully I was but recently like the past couple months I've slowed down like way down and I'm starting to realize why I drank. Cause I can't trust anything or anybody. It killed that pain. And it's not like I can tell these people that, no one wants to hear you dont trust them especially if they believe they are close to you. I've changed so many things in the past couple months like not drinking anywhere near as much( I was at about a fifth of whiskey a day) and quitting smoking(1 to 2 packs a day depending on how much I was drinking) now im basically sober except for normal acceptable drinking with "my friends" The point is I really wanna change how i feel because I'm afraid if I don't I'll slip back into what I was doing before.

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  • jensapa
    12 years ago | pl

    I think things get easier as u get older. Being 20 and dealing with the mentality of people around that age can be hard sometimes.

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  • anonymous2020
    12 years ago | pl

    Thank you I think that's what I needed to hear

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  • dappled
    12 years ago | pl

    Well, you sound like you're on the right path. You talk about changing how you feel. In all honesty, people you trust are going to hurt you. Some of the people you trust the most are going to hurt you the most.

    It leaves you two pathways. One, which is never to let people in, and stay unhurt but also unhappy on a flatline. Two, to take the risks, have the lows when they come and the highs when they do too, and enjoy the rollercoaster.

    Trust me, it should always the rollcoaster. All that matters is how long it takes us to realise that.

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