Is it normal that my penis doesn't look like just the way i want..?

Hi there...My skin is actually brown but my penis looks so black and the surface of my penis is fat but below of it is thin...Over all it looks totally weird to me..If u think the same think then pls just suggest me how to change the shape n colour of my penis... Besides i dont think girls r gonna will to have sex with me after watching my weird dick... Help me out plss...