Is it normal that my meds make me depressed?
I take Vyvanse (an ADHD medicine). I have ADHD and take Vyvanse which for the most part helps a lot at helping me concentrate. But that is the only thing good about it. One of those pills is absolute hell. It plays with your emotions. Allow me to explain.
I'm a big guy, I'm 6'4. I'm very sociable and love to crack jokes, I'm kinda loud and speak my mind. I'm an extrovert by nature. But when I take one of those pills I'm totally different. I become separated from social gatherings, and no longer part take in conversations that normally I would be the life of. I will no longer have the booming voice I naturally have, instead it's just a soft and monotoned voice.
Not only does it make me unsociable but I feel empty and depressed. Sometimes I just sit there unable to do my work because I'm stuck on a "mental block." During these mental blocks I just feel so empty that it's almost debilitating and I can no longer focus on my work. Sometimes I will be fine and then suddenly I'll start thinking about my life and how pointless it seems, and how alone I am. I find myself thinking about how I go through the same daily routine everyday and how depressing my life is because of it.
Also I have really bad anxiety while on this medication. If someone just says one thing that is even remotely a verbal insult, I freak out. Even if it's just joking around or friendly banter. I realize that they don't mean anything by it but I can't control my anxiety. And 90% of the time it ruins my entire day. Because I'll be obsessing about it all day. In my mind I'm like "What did he mean by that?" And it will stay in the back of my mind for a month, sometimes I never forget it.
When I'm off my medication I'm a totally different guy. I talk to people, and I'm outspoken. I'm usually happy and almost never have depressing feelings. And NEVER have anxiety. So are these normal side effects for an ADD/ADHD medication?