Is it normal that my emotions are this way?
I feel like my emotions are very strange and just not the same as everyone elses. Whenever I explain to a friend how I feel they laugh and say its strange or they sympathize but I still feel like they dont understand. This is posted in hopes that someone out there does.
I rarely ever feel sad about anything but when I do I cant let it out. I cannot cry unless I know that im totally alone and cannot be heard or found out by anyone, and that is rare. If I dont know that than It gets stuck in my throat and I just feel even worse. I used to cut myself because of that happening to me (For the record, I do not anymore) However, when I do get sad I cant stop and I get upset about everything.
I always get very paranoid at night and end up texting a friend of mine flipping out over the smallest things.
I am always afraid that everyone is laughing at me and all my friends secretly hate me and find what I say stupid. No matter how much I truly know they love me, I still have that delusion/paranoia in the back of my head.
Is this normal and everyone goes through it, or is something off with me? *Besides cutting. I know that is bad and I dont anymore.