I feel like you all the time. I just found out (and it was my fault for not researching this beforehand (but one reason IS because of my depression)) that I can't claim residency for school because I'm under 24. (Even though I've lived on my own since I turned 18.) That means I've been waiting to go to school for a year and it was all for nothing.
I've been depressed since I was 16 (I'm 21) and I finally went to see a psychiatrist last week because my moods change so often and are so intense that I'll be okay (even better than okay) at work (or anywhere) one moment then all of a sudden my mood plummets, I get extremely anxious and scared that I've been close to walking out and killing myself.
After a while it gets old pretending you're confident and cheery when really you're holding back tears.
I think you'll discover as you grow older, that we start life with very volatile emotions which grow ever more stable with age until you reach middle age at which point you begin to realize you've experienced wars, national crises, floods, famine, pestilence, and everything under the sun and survived.
Then, one day you have your 40th birthday and everybody tells you, "Life begins at forty" and you want to tell them to shut up as you begin to realize time is limited and yours is running out. Then you decide life isn't so bad and you you've survived so far so why not see the rest of the play because it's really quite fascinating.
Is it normal that Im the most pathetic 19 year old who ever lived?
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I feel like you all the time. I just found out (and it was my fault for not researching this beforehand (but one reason IS because of my depression)) that I can't claim residency for school because I'm under 24. (Even though I've lived on my own since I turned 18.) That means I've been waiting to go to school for a year and it was all for nothing.
I've been depressed since I was 16 (I'm 21) and I finally went to see a psychiatrist last week because my moods change so often and are so intense that I'll be okay (even better than okay) at work (or anywhere) one moment then all of a sudden my mood plummets, I get extremely anxious and scared that I've been close to walking out and killing myself.
After a while it gets old pretending you're confident and cheery when really you're holding back tears.
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I think you'll discover as you grow older, that we start life with very volatile emotions which grow ever more stable with age until you reach middle age at which point you begin to realize you've experienced wars, national crises, floods, famine, pestilence, and everything under the sun and survived.
Then, one day you have your 40th birthday and everybody tells you, "Life begins at forty" and you want to tell them to shut up as you begin to realize time is limited and yours is running out. Then you decide life isn't so bad and you you've survived so far so why not see the rest of the play because it's really quite fascinating.