Is it normal that im so dissapointed with my life?

Yes. Many people have dreams that they wish they had followed, so you're not alone. The good news is that you are still young, so you still have time to change your life if you want. Have you tried looking into colleges? Also, if you want to travel more, you could ask your hubs to go on a romantic vacation with you. It doesn't have to be anything expensive or exotic; a short trip to a neighboring state could be fun.