Is it normal that i wish i had mare udders?

I suffer somewhat from species dysphoria (well suffer might be stretching things a bit)

Thanks to a certain children's cartoon I've been increasingly identifying as equine. I'm happy to fly in the face of reasonable thought and regard this as normal.

However... After reading an article which I won't go into here I've been increasingly thinking about having a pair of soft mares udders somewhere between (or nearly between) my hind legs, and imagine myself suckling my young foal.

For some reason I find this thought really comforting and satisfying. I'm quite happy being male, and don't think I have gender issues, but I'm increasingly wishing that i could experience motherhood as a loving mare and feel my foals warm soft lips hungrily nuzzling against my swollen nipples...

So... I'm normal right?

(Also... Yeah, I'm serious.)